Week 4: Promises

Let the grief and the heartache swallow you whole, because if you try to outrun it, it will find you. There is a life waiting for you on the other side.... I promise 

Week 4: Promises

2026 Word: Bloom

Goal: 12,000 Steps

Book: Atomic Habits

Grief is a funny thing, sneaking up on you when you least expect it. A sudden memory can take you back a lifetime, to a time when things were different, and loss hadn’t shattered your life. 

I am sure I still have unresolved grief that nudges its way in each time I laugh.  A reminder of what I could not do for years, this feeling that comes over me. It is not guilt, but feels like a broken promise, one that can’t be explained. Everyone’s life moves on, yet yours, though moving, is shattered, a piece of glass, keeping people at a distance. 

Losing our 5-year-old son Ryan is an interwoven part of my story, and all these years later can still come as a shock. I will forever wonder why him?

The loss of a child is something you never get over. It is that promise of tomorrow that is missing. Years later I still carry the weight of his lifeless body in my arms, the heaviness unbearable, as the echo of sobs linger in the halls of the hospital.

There is a hole in my heart that time cannot mend, but I will keep my promise to him that I will always share his life, his memory and the joy he brought so many.