Week 10: Lessons From Dad

The pain passes, but the beauty remains

Week: 10

 After attending a funeral over the weekend, I left feeling downhearted, prickling with all those bittersweet stories we share in our suffering. Conversations attempting to fill the void of what is no longer. Within the sadness, another memory surfaces, a souvenir of all the love and grief I continue to stumble through. 

Still today, I attempt to unravel the trauma of their deaths, so sudden, and shocking. Losing a child, parent and sibling within a short span of time shoves you into some lessons you long to avoid.

The questions of purpose; why you are here, how can you honor them while learning to cope with such heartache.  Acceptance of the unresolved. Knowing I will never comprehend the truth of their loss, unable to reconcile the loss of so much time together. The what if questions never ending. 

During his life, our father always reminded us that life was not fair when things did not go the way we had hoped. The tragedy of their loss is beyond my understanding of unfair.